Episode Three ~ The Battle to Protect Jason

[grace]

Jason doesn’t understand how close he is to being blindsided if I’m not there to make sure he doesn’t and this puts me in the position where I have to make a decision sooner than I wanted to in this game.

I can’t lose Jason, that’s just not an option here. He’s beneficial for my game and for me personally. I fucking adore the guy so much more than I ever thought I would and he’s one of few people who I could sit on call with and just laugh for hours. The thought of losing him in a swap on a personal level is terrifying in itself, but it’s more terrifying in the fact that I don’t know if he will be able to survive without me. In my eyes I’m the only one who somewhat could protect him, so me swapping to be by myself would kill me. I know I can survive, but I don’t know if he can and that’s so scary.

Devon and Elyse are both already onto Jason and could very well try to make a move against him and he’d barely see it coming. The way Kristine talks about him to other people is terrifying. I’m not entirely sure how much other people trust me, but I do know how much Jason does.

Alex and I have been talking about how to try and maneuver this situation so if we do lose, Jessie goes home. It’s tricky and I’m so terrified I might overstep and ruin this near perfect set up I have.

But this episode is called “The Battle to Protect Jason” and I will do anything I can to keep him safe. I can’t afford to lose him before merge.

[grace]

I’ve been trying to work on past mistakes like accidentally revealing too much information. Tonight will consist of me trying to warn Jason about Kristine.