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Post by Iqra on Nov 19, 2019 22:02:40 GMT -5
im starting to regret how everything has turned out for me in this game so far. im frustrated with myself for times ive said too much and times i havent said enough. idk when i decided to become this trusting, loyal player. i play up being naive but sometimes i am in fact naive. gullible. our whole original tribe is cracked. im just happy im not on a tribe with sam anymore. i cant stand her. i sense that she is such an egotistical player, and it's very off putting. i have decided to unsubscribe. i dont know who my loyalties are with. i honestly dont. i know im supposed to be my own cheerleader but i feel like sulking right now so just lemme be. .
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Post by Iqra on Nov 19, 2019 22:20:40 GMT -5
im not sure if voting out jess was the best thing for my game or not.
i did it because i honestly thought i had found "my" alliance ... like a legit one and i felt like kyle was at the bottom of it before i ever would be. but now that it feels like i was making a move to better sam's game i cringe lol
and then round two, we voted ryan out. i actually like ryan. idk why torry said he had an advantage? spencer ran with that. chris swears its sam who got the advantage so now this makes me feel like "great i missed my shot" because a blindside against sam would've been even sweeter.
then round three im so fucking paranoid, im willing to vote whoever even if it's my number one ally. i dont know if she ever had an advantage but if she did, i just wish she would tell me so we could've made a move. it crushed my soul to write her name down.
that wasn't a move for my game, that was a move for someone else's game - for the rest of this tribe. my main goal for this past round was just to survive.
and that i did.
im happy for this swap. i feel like i cant breathe on that OG tribe lol. i feel like they're all these newbies that are so eager to play so they are going so unnecessarily hard and maybe its fun to watch but its been a roller coaster ride for me and roller coaster rides make me cry. they make me sob. i dont like them.
i just want to win a challenge and be left alone. i can get very invested and caught up with this stuff. its very emotionally exhausting dealing with all of this.
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