Episode Seven ~ The One Where Grace Literally Loses Her Mind

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Elyse, our original final premerge target, has fallen.

ALSO I SWEAR IM NOT THAT MAD AT KRISTINE I JUST WANT JASON TO FEEL BAD FOR ME. I still don’t like her and think she’s a mean girl but I’m not like that beaten up about it I’ll get over it I’m a big girl.

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I changed my mind the more I think about it, the more I hate Kristine. Devon staying was so bad because she’s just gonna cry to him more

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Part 3 of kristine saga... we made up???

Idk I don’t trust her at all but like I also don’t want to like snap her neck so that’s progress right?

[grace]

This break was much needed because the last few days have taken a toll on me personally...

At first I wasn’t that upset about the Kristine situation because I didn’t know the extent of why she exposed an alliance. As the days passed on I was told a lot of things that were potentially like twisted or personal things confided into kristine that she turned into game and that’s where I draw the line. I’m not gonna put these statements on a public forum because it’s not my place to and if people really want to interrogate me about what I’m feeling right now post season then they definitely can, but there’s no doubt in my mind that some lines were crossed that definitely shouldn’t have been.

I shouldn’t have let myself get so upset over a situation involving someone whose words should have very little effect on me and I have and it’s put such a sour taste in my mouth. I’ve been playing to win since day one but I also refuse to sit back and let my name be slandered on a personal level when all of the issues are not on my end.

The personal connections I’ve developed with Jason and Alex are friendships I know I want to last outside of the game. Specifically Jason has been so fucked over in this scenario where it’s honestly neither of our faults. I feel so just horrified that I honestly got driven to a breaking point personally. Alex hasn’t had the easiest time personally either and emotions are just so high and that doesn’t make the game fun anymore.

I’m really embarrassed about the fact that my entire merge experience so far has been me getting worked up over this situation time and time again because of new information being given to me. Hopefully I can make this my final piece on this situation and resume normal game talking strategy confessionals.

I know the bond I’ve made with Jason is genuine on my end and I’m like 100% certain it’s genuine on his. That’s all that should matter.

[grace]

I’ll make a confessional whenever I know what the fuck is actually going on

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So basically I believe the plan tonight is 4 votes Kristine 4 votes Chris 2 votes Alex 1 vote Brandon.

Survivor AA (me, Sam, Spencer, Alex, Jessie, Brandon, and Torry) are gonna split votes between Kristine and Chris

Chris thinks that me him Jason and Alex are voting Brandon and will probably throw his vote there.

Kristine thinks that OG Dreyfus is voting me/Jason and her “misfits alliance” which got exposed VERY fast is voting Alex. Not sure why she thinks repeating the same well known fact that we had an alliance with her is gonna make everyone hate us and not her but go off Kristine.

I’m very nervous about this whole plan but I’m pretty confident that even if it backfires I’m still gonna be safe. Who knows, guess we’ll see.

Brandon approached me about us two secretly working together to eventually take out Sam and Spencer which is literally what my plan is gonna be down the road so I’m glad he said that. We’re just gonna have to play it by ear. As long as me Jason and Alex survive this round I’m satisfied.

[grace]

Mark my words if Jason goes home tonight I’m going down swinging for him. Kinda have a potential feeling that they’re actually voting Kristine and Jason and not Kristine and Chris. Sucks that he’s on a plane and I can’t tell him goodbye if that’s the case. I’ll write like a funeral post for either him or Alex or myself. I honestly don’t care anymore if he leaves at least it wasn’t me taking him out. Alex literally offered to get voted out to buy me time in the game if Jason goes like wtf is this emotional shit uGH.

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WELL NOW I FEEL BAD KRISTINE SAID SHE LOVES ME ON THE WAY OUT KRISTINE IM SORRY I JUST DONT LIKE WHEN YOU SAY PERSONAL SHIT ABOUT ME AND CALL ME MANIPULATIVE