Episode Nine ~ Dear Jason

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As cheesy as this is, I hope it’ll make you happy post season.

Dear Jason,

Thank you for being the best ally I could’ve had in this game. The amount of times we stayed up until 5am on call just talking about life and everything made this game so much easier. I’m genuinely like heartbroken that you left so soon because I really had dreams of us being able to make it far together and destroy everyone. I really don’t know where to go now. I’m gonna do anything I can to get to the end and avenge you here. Normally I write confessionals at 1am or are on call with you and tonight there’s a different kind of lonely feeling without you here. I’ll do ANYTHING to get to the end now, there’s nothing or nobody holding me back. You’re such an amazing person and I genuinely have loved every second we stumbled along in this game together. Hopefully I can give #Grason the justice it deserves

~Grace

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Now that that’s done, Sam and Spencer like weren’t even super mad at me at all?? Hopefully I can win immunity with Sam and build some trust back into us.

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I am in complete disbelief that not only did I just find the fucking merge idol but also that Devon never thought to just put di in the image code?

I started off today so sad but hopeful for the future. Now no matter what I know I’m making people proud. I’m avenging Jason, and people are gonna regret taking him out so early now.

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So Spencer just approached me with almost the exact same idea I had in mind for moving forward. He wants to take out Sam, and I want to take out Alex. Devon will probably be the first person to go in the live night, but after that it's fair game on what to do. Spencer wants to take out Sam 7th, Alex 6th. I said if it's me, him, Torry, Jessie, and Brandon at final 5 I won't write his name down if he doesn't write mine and we can battle it out at 4. Now, I know I have the idol and will be fine at 5 no matter what, but I'm interested to know how this will go down in the future. I'm putting my hand in a few more cookie jars since royally failing last round (although I'd argue there were benefits to what I did such as making Alex look worse LMAO). I love my nugget but I know he's got a good social game and a great underdog story.

Overall though if I can get through live night with Alex and me still here I'd consider that a win. I know I have the idol so I might clue Brandon in right before tribal that Sam might go home during the chaos if that's the case to build trust with him further. I think realistically if it's a final 4 of me/spencer/brandon/whoever, Brandon WOULD tie it for me if Spencer or I don't win immunity. This game is so close to being over but there's so much game left to be played.

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It wouldn’t be a survivor game if people weren’t trying to put my head on a silver platter

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There’s a good possibility I go home here but I’m not pulling out the idol tonight. I’d rather get 8th than waste it and guarantee I get 7th. If I can just survive this round I think I have a solid shot at getting at least final 4. Fingers crossed.