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Post by Iqra on Nov 15, 2019 0:59:21 GMT -5
Damn...
idk. My bad.
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Post by Iqra on Nov 15, 2019 1:09:40 GMT -5
I really screwed over spencer this round and i didn’t mean to but tbh it is what it is. I’ve expressed enough annoyance w myself over this so I’m accepting that what happened, happened and he probs doesn’t trust me anymore
I just wasn’t ready to make a move on this five person alliance i don’t necessarily feel like I’m at the bottom of it. Plus we just made it yesterday and i feel like for now it’s something i can rely on u know
I feel like i should’ve told Spencer though so he wouldn’t be in the minority that was kind of grimy and stupid of me i just feel Bad. Maybe i should keep my feelings out of this. I mainly didn’t tell him Bc i didn’t want him to go back to the other 3 people and tell them it wa s because of me that we weren’t gonna make a move against San or Kyle lol like i don’t want that responsibility i didn’t ask for it don’t give me all that power because i don’t know what the fuck to do with it
Quick throwback to earlier today when i said “I’m just tryna lay low and in the background this round. I don’t care about this blindside and i want nothing to do with it if it blows up in people’s faces” LOL the total opposite happened
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Post by Iqra on Nov 17, 2019 0:05:00 GMT -5
ugh we lost .. by THREE FLIPPIN MINUTES
it's definitely looking like that other tribe is the "alpha" tribe here - they got all the advantages, and what not
but yknow what, they aint shit to me
moving on
i think i def tanked spencer's game if he leaves this round
and it kinda sorta does make me really sad bc i adore him, but my feelings aside, it'd be great for my game if he left bc he's the only one i feel like i have some sort of distrust with at the moment and i could see him easily flippin on me in case of a swap soooo ya .
i'm tryna make amends with torry and im trying to get chioma to be my right hand.
crazy how things change
i just hope somehow all of this doesnt blow up on me .. i'm scared. there's def a lot of paranoia in my head still (but whos surprised)
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Post by Iqra on Nov 17, 2019 15:58:31 GMT -5
all my crazy scrambled thoughts pre-TC
’m freaking out about the vote getting on me somehow lol. God forbid. I’m so paranoid. HM lol
From the swing vote to the potential vote off
I think i need to make an alliance with torry and chioma But that scares me so much Because I don’t want to be an early boot with having my hands in so many cookie jars.
If i get busted it’s over for me
Well Ummmm I don’t want to be the center of this vote. All this attention this soon is not good.
:/ what if spencer has an idol
should we split the votes
maybe 2 on chioma, 5 on him, 1 on me (his vote) DAMN
so the plan is (assuming no idol is involved) everyone votes spencer, spencer votes either chioma or i - whoever hes thinking
chioma will tell spencer she thinks shes leaving so he feels a little bit secure going into TC and sticks with voting chioma
Oh ...my God. torry made an alliance w me and chioma
Wait what if torry and chioma voted for Kyle and i voted for spencer
And in case spencer has an idol, Kyle would be the one to go Not me or chioma (whoever spencer ends up voting for)
How do i bring this up to the two girls without sounding shady
That way I’ll have voted with the majority, the girls won’t be mad at me because they’ll be in on the plan, and Kyle will leave and i guess i don’t really care if he leaves because I’m still in these two alliances
Honestly I’m doing too much. I’m the worst
Is there a trio in our five group? Ryan Brandon Sam?
No one wants to split the votes. If he does have an idol, I’m screwed.
If i didn’t before, I am starting to feel at the bottom of this five.
What if they’re voting me out?
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Post by Iqra on Nov 17, 2019 16:23:45 GMT -5
reminder to self that everything isnt about me
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Post by Iqra on Nov 17, 2019 17:01:48 GMT -5
OMGGGGGGGGG
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Post by Iqra on Nov 17, 2019 18:24:50 GMT -5
LOL "WHAT if theyre voting me out?"
ya always gotta trust your gut but sometimes it can feel like your paranoia is clouding your judgment
shout out to spencer - the real g here
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Post by Iqra on Nov 17, 2019 19:31:16 GMT -5
i've gotta admit i put myself in this predicament
i should've just told spencer last round the vote was jess and we could've all voted together, easy peasy and none of this would've even transpired
but here we are
this is what happens when ur messy
i barely survived.
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Post by Iqra on Nov 18, 2019 18:28:19 GMT -5
Sam really tried it lol
I used to get a feeling she was a snake but i thought she’d reserve it for later (and for others, not me)
can’t wait to vote her ass out
Talking about “you’re a good player” you don’t even know me hun.
And if i was such a good player, my name wouldn’t be the center of attention so early on in the game but thanks
Talking about “idk if u know people on the other tribe” YA I DO AND WHAT?? You think elyse is for sure working with me??? You don’t think she’s playing her own game?? How do you know i don’t have beef with people i do know on the other side?? I can understand her frustration because i hate being in games with pre existing connections. I’m almost always at a disadvantage so i do get it - i do. But it’s not the same thing because 1) she doesn’t even know for sure if i know anyone and 2) elyse and i aren’t best friends and we didn’t end on the best terms in Broher. I don’t trust her 100% and idk if she trusts me 100%. Either way, before i can establish anything with anyone on the other tribe, i need to solidify bonds with people on MY side. Sam is already showing she came to play hard and has no loyalty to anyone. She made an alliance with Jess and then gvoted Jess out and left torry out of the vote. Then she made an alliance with me and tried to blindside me. If anything SHES the one who would flip ina. Blink of an eye and that’s why she’s so worried about other people flipping. She’s DEFLECTING
Who risks their majority alliance this early in the game for the sake of a blindside? These bitches did a “alliance call” in that alliance chat to play up voting out spencer to me before TC lol they really went the EXTRA MILE to make sure this blindside was BRUTAL on me. Jokes on y’all congrats on minority xo
To be fair sometimes i can seem sketch even when I’m not up to anything lol because soemtimes i lie about dumb shit and people compare notes and i recognize that in some ways i put myself in this position. I’ll work on that
This is why i say I’m not always strategic. sometimes i make decisions just to make them and get a conversation over with. Ya gotta be calculated in every single thing u do, u know
This is when i would go all the way UTR in BB but it’s hard to go UTR in survivor because if we lose this challenge, ya gotta scramble all over again to make sure it ain’t ur name that’s out there lol ugh. Exhausting. But honestly I’m ready to take a back seat. I need to slow it down. I’m in it for the long haul.
I don’t want this attention right now. Please. Can this end
Can we cut to someone else being messy and in trouble
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